I felt vulnerable and volatile, and that’s never a good mix as a performer, because I do believe that everyone is responsible for how one responds to a situation. And I was in this weird space of not being able to communicate what I needed, and that made me feel so many ways but I felt unsure of myself and how I would respond. Vulnerable and volatile.

Years ago now (feels weird to say this) but years ago in therapy, right before I began the process for The Duchess short film, I remember commenting to my therapist that I could afford either The Duchess or bottom surgery. He asked why and … basically I only had enough credit for one. And then he asked why I couldn't do both at the same time and - look. Trans people don’t make a lot of money. Black indie filmmakers don’t make a lot of money. Black trans queer people don’t make a lot of money. Black trans queer filmmakers don’t make a lot of money.